Suicide
I have thought about that. I do not understand why you killed yourself under such haste. I do not understand. You where rich enough to do it in an arranged form, if you where in so much pain you could not endure. There are suicide clinics in Holland. If one would become to such a stage that there are no options to i.e. enormous amounts of pain I can understand if someone wants to die. But then you should die under controlled forms. I do not know if you where in enormous amounts of pain or not. I have had enormous amounts of pain sometimes, not often, but I can understand what kind of pain is hard to endure. Also some diagnois have a bad outcome and I can understand those that do not want to continue under such circumstances. I know what I wouldn't be able to endure and I would think about the clinic as an option. You had that option, as any other with severe pain for the remainder of your stay on Earth. I didn't know you. I cannot say. But how you have been said to do it... I j